My first post

Well, what brought me here? If you know me, you know that I have had a rough few years. Not all of it, but some of it. It started with my first miscarriage in May of 2007. We then tried to get pregnant for several months after that, but were not successful. We took a break, finished college, started careers, and decided in April of 2008 is was time to try again. In August, I became pregnant, but it was very short-lived. I miscarried again.

After miscarriage #2, a lot of thinking happened. What am I supposed to do with my life? My current career was no longer what I wanted. I realized that it wasn't what I was cut out for. I could not see myself doing that for many more years, by any stretch of the imagination. In my heart, all I want to do is be a stay at home mom. But clearly, God didn't have this in his plans -- or eat least right now.

To keep my mind and focus off of it all, I decided to reach for the stars and pursue a new passion of mine -- dogs! Dog training, to be specific. I decided I wanted to attend National K9 and immediately began obsessing over this new dream of mine. It was easy to do. It felt good to stop focusing on the heartache and start focusing on a new plan. We began saving like crazy, and all I could do was think/talk about it! I was very excited.

Well, a few months into all the planning, my heart began to shift again. I think I had just allowed myself ample time to recover/grieve the miscarriage and no longer be so affected by it emotionally. I was able to see babies again, think about starting a family, and dream of THAT dream once more.

Before I knew it, I no longer wanted to attend NK9. The TTC plans were in full swing again. This story is the incredibly shortened version, but basically, after months of discussions with DH as well as prayer and lots of self-discovery, I knew in my heart that this is the path I need to take. I have no idea how it will turn out, but I can only hope that this is finally the right time for us.