In the 2WW

At least, I think I am. My chart says I'm 5dpo today. I went in at 3dpo for bloodwork (CD 21 routine bloodwork, which ideally is at 7dpo, but I didn't ovulate on CD 14 like the textbook says I should). Doctor called yesterday with my bloodwork results and it had not shown that I ovulated. I was bummed out.

I told her that I was pretty certain (based on a +OPK and charting my temps) that I was only 3dpo at the time of the bloodwork so she asked me to come in Monday which will be 7dpo for more bloodwork. Hopefully, it shows I ovulated like my chart does and that my progesterone levels are good. If they aren't, I'll be going on progesterone supplements.

If it doesn't show that I O'd, then she wants to try me on 100mg of Clomid next cycle. She's also going to discuss with me taking the Clomid on CD 3-7 rather than CD 5-9 which could help me to O earlier, around CD 14 like I am "supposed" to.

If it shows that I O'd but all my numbers are low, then she doesn't think I had a good chance at conception and still wants to try me on 100mg of Clomid next cycle for a stronger O. (Oh goody... does that mean twice as much acne for me?!... and headaches?! Yay!)

If I ovulated and my numbers are decent/good, then she'll keep me on 50mg of Clomid next cycle if I didn't conceive this cycle.

I had spotting this morning. A few dots of red blood only when I wiped. At first I though I could be bleeding down there, like had a bump or a cut or something since it was bright red (spotting for me is usually brown right before AF shows). It's awfully early for any spotting to happen even with my typically short LP. I also feel a bit crampy like AF is coming. I don't typically get stomach cramps but more so lower back aches. I will be seriously disappointed if AF comes as early as usual. Honestly, if I'm not pregnant this cycle I will be totally OK with that. I just really, really want my LP to be a normal length so I can lift that weight off my shoulders. After all, that's the only reason I went on Clomid in the first place. The spotting could be implantation, but I'm not trying to get my hopes up. It does sound an awful lot like what is described online... so I guess only time will tell if that's what it is.

In the past, my LP would be up in 4 days. If AF comes in 6-8 days, I will be happy! I do have cheap pregnancy tests on hand, but I don't even feel tempted at this point. I guess I just don't have my hopes up especially hearing the bloodwork results yesterday. Maybe if my bloodwork comes back better on Tuesday I will start to feel more like it's possible that I'm pregnant.